tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-92510832011-04-21T10:50:59.190-07:00dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.comBlogger151100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1103647084976769562004-12-22T00:37:00.000-08:002004-12-21T08:38:04.976-08:00today is tuesday...like duh.. <br />hahahahhaha... <br /> <br />hmmm well shahrul came over to ma store...sweeeetttt huh? <br />gt a glimpse of him tho i wasnt like sure if it was him or not. <br />im starting to feel empty.. <br />whyyy <br />why why <br />u knw? <br />i dunnoe... <br /> <br />hmmmmm.... <br />all i want fer this christmas is.....?????????????????mummy!!~ <br /> <br />dunnoe...ive been hurting a few guys lately.. <br />feel bad but it lasts fer a while..cuz i dun love them.. <br />i cnt..each time i try,i cant <br />SORRY <br />REALLY REALLY TRY BUT EACH TIME I SEE THINGS GG DWNHILL. <br /> <br />sumtimes i like the feeling of being single..guys ard me <br />but when i realise things are getting outta hand,its too late..i bcum labelled as a heartbreaker.. <br />but i dun really cre.. <br />im looking fer smone whum i can like as well.. <br />"its better to b with sumone whu loves u den u loving him" <br />but again... <br />u HAF to b with sumone whum u can love as well... <br />yeah love grows...but...how long will it take?? <br /> <br />i dun cre abt age.. <br />race <br />backgrds <br /> <br />i jus need sumone whum i can spend a long time with..tts all... <br /> <br />i hate sweet talkers.. <br />i hate mushy pple<those whu r nt ma bf yet> <br />i hate pretenders <br />i hate pple whu likes to fasten things up <br />i hate pple to jus think too much abt things <br />i hate it when they jus wanna seem sooo ugh..get their poor fren involved in things which haf nuthing to do with them.... <br />DARN.. <br /> <br />dun think abt things tht will make u upset all the time. <br />u shud b thinking hw to chamge those ways of urs.. <br />nt all gals are the same.FUll stop. <br /> <br />i wan sumone whu can b himself when he's with me b4 we start anything.. <br />once u lack tt,things change. <br /> <br />trust is up fer earning.. <br />nt fer fun. <br /> <br />i like ma life nw.. <br />i guess... <br />i get to spend loads of time with ma mum.. <br />i get to see laney <br />dun get much time with her but i knw tht sumwher our frenship stil live strng in our hearts..its still in mine gurl.. <br /> <br />well..life is such..we jus need to b patient.. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110364708497676956?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1103524885417885432004-12-20T14:42:00.000-08:002004-12-19T22:41:25.416-08:00fooooo finally my explorer is kinda alrite now..haven been in fer sumtym...gosh!!!~ <br />well now its like <br />work <br />work <br />work <br />sooooooo,nuthing much to say...dun find myself falling for anyone or watsoever...kakakak <br />well sumone at werk thot so but nahhhh she aint sum big shot tt everyone is lusting aft her.it was jus admiration on ma part..u knw...im yng she's ma elder..the way she does stuff and things like dat...akakkaka <br />its lame..she's near to being an adult...y sooo ughh... <br /> <br />love the place.. <br />the pple.. <br />everyone uh.. <br />whu they are wat they are.. <br />its them whu gives me the kick man.. <br />tired... <br />surely.. <br />lalalala <br />listening to sum shits..but quite nice la really... <br />all the old songs i used to listen to with sumone i loved...i'd given my hart to him but guess was too young to get too serious tt time..kekeke... <br />*remember the 1st day when i saw ur face...* <br />il alwaes remember..this song..the lyrics... <br />kakakakakakkaka but hell yeah man we rock...we're still buds.. <br /> <br />i miss laney. <br /> <br />jus mis her so...really really do...smtyms its jus tht i dun talk much to u cuz i dun wan to say anything rong tht mite harm this frenship in any ways. <br />i haven had a gal fren like u fer sooooooooooo looooonnnngggg... <br />i appreciate u.. <br />nvr wud i wan to lose u... <br />thank u fer eberything. <br />if i dun talk much,its nt cuz i hate u or haf forsaken this frenship but its jus tt sumtyms by kipping quite,we can save a few things... <br />im alwaes ard darlzzz... <br />hmmmm <br /> <br />going to eat now la..hungry shits. <br />later going tamp mall.wanna buy skirt fer werk la.everytime the pants.boring <br />hmmm later if i have nuthing to do il cum in again... <br /> <br />explorer dwn fer soooo long...tried ma luck...godeh2 ard den ta dahhhhh!!~ <br />kakakkaka...nutty genius shit...nahh im jus trying to make meself feel bettr...keekeekeeekeee... <br /> <br />fer now,daaaaaaa~~~ <br /> <br />muaks to Laney<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110352488541788543?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1101491290461194652004-11-27T01:48:00.000-08:002004-11-26T09:48:10.460-08:00hmmm today was greaaatttt~ <br />and guess im like gonna start life afresh. <br /> <br />you knw why? <br />dunnoe? <br />nt sure? <br />kakakakak its cuz too many things happened all at one moment.. <br />like u knw..i was in situations wher il alwaes end up losing the battle? <br />hmmm nt gponna b bothered anymore since i alwaes say i live my life the way i WANT it <br /> <br />so fook to those pple.hahahahahah <br />positive positive..positivity..bleah bleah.. <br />im gonna jus shake things off if they cum to me like sum farking bullets.. <br />kakaka..fook too all the people's comments.!!~ <br /> <br />hmmm and well..yeah got ta admit..was kinda f up today cuz of sum pple but nahhh they live in their own world and i live in mine.they haf the rite wad nak katerkan.. <br /> <br />so yeah...hahah..hmmm mocha..mine tasted gd..tt was the comment frm ma C.L.C.. <br /> <br />nuthing much to write.. <br />cuz i knw tmr is gonna b a gd day no matter wad happens... <br /> <br />wahuahuauahuahuahuahuahuahuahuhauhauhauhua!!!!~<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110149129046119465?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1101165988175291032004-11-24T07:25:00.000-08:002004-11-22T15:26:28.176-08:00 elo morning ahhh...damn gd man the slp..kakakakka...FUCKEROOS <br /> <br />Complete and total adoration, <br />My gift to you, my heart was yours, <br />In ten weeks you shaped it, <br />In one night you murdered it. <br />Torn from my chest and laid at your feet, <br />That first step that you took was the worst. <br />Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark, <br />And I still have these memories, <br />But will never see what we could have been. <br />Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now? <br />Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? <br />Remember, Cause that's all you can do. <br />We'll never make another memory, <br />We'll never make another memory. <br />I wish i would have died in your arms the last time we were together, <br />So I wouldn't have to wake without you today. <br />This time I thought things were real, <br />You said they were, <br />What happened? <br />You were a priority, <br />Was I an option? <br />I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone. <br />Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled. <br />Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart, <br />I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough. <br />So, we'll go our own ways, <br />And hopefully you'll remember these things i've told you, <br />Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity. <br />A broken heart is not what I wanted from this, <br />But I guess i've learned from it. <br />But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes? <br />I don't consider this a mistake, <br />I just wish the story didn't end this way, <br />Cause i'm still thinking abt the frenship with this person who helped me write it. <br />Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now? <br />Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? <br /> <br /><em></em>a yr frm now-across five aprils<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110116598817529103?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1101234215346522172004-11-24T02:24:00.000-08:002004-11-23T10:23:35.346-08:00guess ita a frriggin bad day <br /><<dun say sorry..to me its nt a mistake>> <br /> <br />a tag <br /> <br />crushing moments <br /> <br />misunderstooded <br /> <br />bad day <br /> <br />damn sad <br /> <br />he ripped my world apart...snatched away my self-esteem <br />givvit back to me..i nid it fer wrok and fer frens..plss... <br /> <br />i love u <br />u misunderstood me. <br />ur bf misunderstooded wad i said <br />he upsetted u <br />u upsetted me <br />u gt mad i gt sad. <br />i hat my life but i love u. <br />ure a greaaattt fren <br />my sole listening ear. <br />the crazy side of me <br /> <br />wad is the frenship cuming to? <br />i dun wan it to b in bits <br /> <br /> <br />i hate my life <br /> <br />my life <br /> <br />fark the emotionals dats cuming right at me. <br />i hate to not being able to be myself <br /> <br />i hate u pple whu think otherwise of me <br /> <br />i cant smile nemor cuz its nt me.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110123421534652217?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1101232862109804132004-11-24T02:00:00.000-08:002004-11-23T10:03:06.466-08:00great night this is. <br /><<dun b sorry.wad u did wasnt a mistake to me.>> <br /> <br /> <br />aft a tag <br /> <br />den a quest <br /> <br />den a blog <br /> <br />den sum heart wrenching moments <br /> <br />den sum this <br /> <br />den sum that <br /> <br />den sum this <br /> <br />u tore my life apart...ripped my self esteem..made me a dumd loner.. <br />sumone whu dun even dare to raise her head nw. <br /> <br />do me a favour.. <br />givvit back to me.i nid it...to work..to njoy. <br /> <br /> <br />i loved u. <br />ur bf misunderstood wad i said. <br />he misunderstood u <br />u got mad <br />but i still love u. <br />cuz u are great. <br />i used to b like u.. <br />but nowww.... <br /> <br />im fucked up. <br />everyday. <br />emotionals nvr leave me alone. <br />plz..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110123286210980413?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1101228207725495192004-11-24T00:46:00.000-08:002004-11-23T08:43:27.726-08:00well the day din go ver well but ahhhhh..... <br /> <br /> <br />yawns <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />yawns <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />yawns <br /> <br /> <br />dat lyric was fer u boy.well...ahhhhh.fucks.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110122820772549519?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1101144753558511762004-11-23T01:31:00.000-08:002004-11-22T09:32:33.556-08:00oh yeah read his blog...wahhhh darn confident sakkkk bbual. <br />yeah so what i made noise?aku ngan dier lain pe.he le tahan aku lak suker luahkan.kalau marah sorry ah babe.jus realised dat all these things are getting ridiculous sakk. <br />no point trying to get back at each other or raking up the past OR PUBLICISING ABT ME. <br />im sorry to b sooo direct ah but really sey.im expressing my unhappiness but nvr said anything abt 'cha.so faham2 ah.if i do it to u pon i think u'l feel as tho ure fucked.im fucked up. <br />so much so fer having a blog to xpress feelings...now da jadi tempat utk org publicise abt other's nye lives sakk.. <br />yeah ure nt my bf but i still call u hubby.same scenario..yannnggg but nt together.ha. <br /> <br />nuff abt this shits. <br /> <br />lin is this huh...lin is that huh....so be it FULL STOP. <br /> <br />when was it ever ZERK'S GUY???????????????? <br /> <br />"now it's time fer you to invest in me,cause if not its best that u leave" <br />u dun wanna hate me fer no reason??im nt hating u but if wanna,its up to u cuz its ur life.well i have no reasons to hate u so im nt gonna hate u. <br /> <br />and whu said unfairness are WANTED??unfairness are ALWAYS UNCALLED FER...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110114475355851176?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1101143295164138632004-11-23T01:08:00.000-08:002004-11-22T09:08:15.163-08:00 okay here how it goes.i miss huseyn...like fark. <br />and sumone told me he loves me.im like so floaty but...hehehehhee <br />kip it slow dude..uve yet to see me.but ure awesome... <br /> trainiong aku cam org nak mampos.alih2 chest aku saket gilerr..heart burn.normal...ceh abg firdhaus and hafiz kiter ader gal la babes...ish tak tau sey.,...so cuteee sey tgk fir tadi...and hafi'z gal is damn sweet!!!!lucky gals...they are GREAT GUYS i dare say...=p <br /> aku skrg kat rumah laney...nga bored fark.hungry fark also. <br /> she's bathing...kakakkakakakakak...im so depressed.im soooo alone!!!!~ <br />hunger hunger...kaooozzz!!!! <br />i love the training jus nw.she's so damn sweet sey... <br /> <br />i love laney. <br />i kinda hate maself actualli. <br />kakaka so fucks lin. <br /> <br />lalalalalalalalalalalalalla<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110114329516413863?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1101050885059881262004-11-21T23:27:00.000-08:002004-11-21T07:28:05.060-08:00i love laney <br />i read her blog.. <br /> <br /> <br />love her soo... <br />she makes my day... <br /> <br />wakakaka... <br />cuz we are both geminis.. <br />differ by 6 god damn days!!!~ <br /> <br />muaccckkkssss... <br /> <br />i miss huseyn.. <br />now i realise sumthing.. <br />hes the darn one whu stands by me.ALWAYS. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110105088505988126?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1101049909395033212004-11-21T23:11:00.000-08:002004-11-21T07:11:49.396-08:00 gt farked by y mum when ihsan vomitted..sedih sakz..i was eating rice and kfc den i asked whther he wanted rice he said yes den i give la..but he vomitted and ughhh!!~ but well..he smy baby sooo,i dun care wat anybody say to me..my mum pon marah sekejab je..so nvm..il forgive and forget.. <br /> tmr must go to darn bukit merah..early in the morning..fucks.i wanna start werking fast uh..training makes me slppy..wakkakaka..nvm i musn't givvup!!!~ <br /> watched taxi jus nw with my adek boy..farking funny...nagagagaggagadadadada..well quite a boring but nice day.rolls eyes.fuck.see ya bloggy bloogy blog..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110104990939503321?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1101029756022909622004-11-21T17:35:00.000-08:002004-11-21T01:35:56.023-08:00 kanina..1st thing i read was shit.ahhhh i thot like wahhh he damn farking mean anything he was saying thru the darm nicks but ahhhh...sooo weelll yeah lin was the fool so??fucks. <br /> i must open my eyes and realise.pple like dat are jus like dat.once they walk away,say they're dam hurt and bla,once they find new pple,tats it.so again fucks lin.wahuahuahuahuahuahua...I miss laneyyy...sobs..miss the fun..wakakakka..wen the two of us go and look at any clothes,we'll haf such great fun..and haf this crazy idea on the coloursss...fucks again. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110102975602290962?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1101028195332500712004-11-21T17:15:00.000-08:002004-11-21T01:09:55.333-08:00 woke at at 4pm today.cant b bothered with the world so i snored thru the day.wakakakaka..dunnoe la..had farked up dreams.AGAIN!!! i slpe at 3am so wad the hell...considered 11hrs only.. <br /> just bathed ahhhhh feeel sooo much better now..hmmm but my throat is like uhhhh..like sum toady..againnn...hai hai huseyn is really like looking fer me sey...ingatkan tak carik2..i mean i thot he was avoiding me...but end up he thot i was avoiding him..wakakkakaka...nahhhh boy...LOpZZZ ya!!!~kakakakka yeahhh yeahhh...but really a lil free advertisement on him..he is like so decent but crazyy sey...sape sape le sygkan dier..hes sooo lovable..and nt fergetting cute..few of my peeps said his cute sooo seee blog...he is a greatt guy...but ..but..wakakakka...we'll see hw things go..if things are supposed to happen let it happen..cuz if they happen its all fer a gd cause... <br />ngagagagagaghahahahhahaha...wahuahuahuahuahuahua...muaccckkkk!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110102819533250071?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1100968573578979442004-11-21T00:13:00.000-08:002004-11-20T09:04:56.486-08:00 <span style="font-family:Arial;">aft the photos and stuff,me and laney gi walk ard summore...waited fer hazlee to like cum down to orc..i mean he din even replied my msg sey..even if sumthing cocked up..luckily im smart nuff den to stay ard in twn till night.went to ECP..had a farking greeeaaaat time..da too long nvr cycle and blade..wahahah...went cyling with laney..wakakka..yeah with the darn black shirts and long pants..my khakis turned black siak aft the lousy bitch broke down and refused to let laney ride on her..</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Arial;"> kiter mati2 ingatkan da pecah sak...cam maner sey...den when i took over the slut it worked..wahahha...i mean plz la..sent creeps man..while i was on it i was praying hard dat it wun cock up and it didnt...hw sexayyy huh..after cycling went over to play with the sand and water..i suddenly remembered..<em>jus remembered..the decomposing piece of bread....</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:Arial;"> we actually took off those black shoes and socks<mine> and walked...smangat sak...screamed at each other while we were desperately trying to shape a heart on the sands with our feets..dumb rite..??wahhuahuahuahuahua...</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Arial;"> fark la too many things sak nari...den cam budak bodoh nak mampos...the two of us sat like sum idiots holding on strongly to the fact tat there'll b a frgging bus dat'll take us to yishun.i mean the 3rd time i checked it said...SATURDAYS NO BUSES...fark!!~wakakakakakkaka...end up naik bus 31 and slept thruout the whole journey till my rubber band came off..laney said sum guy quite handsome sat in frnt of us..im wondering wads going thru his mind...<em>hmmmmmm</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:Arial;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:Arial;">kakakakakkakakwahuahuhauhauhauahuangahahahahahahhanganagnag!!!!~</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110096857357897944?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9251083.post-1100965721382288262004-11-20T22:46:00.000-08:002004-11-20T09:08:16.610-08:00 today was farked up shito day.i mean pls..i had to wake up in the morning on a saturday fer training..but again think abt it..ots all fer a gd cause..il b paid so wad the hell..dunnoe la couldnt wake up cuz fark al the bad dreams..wakakakak..waited fer mum to cum home..but ahhh she gave me only ten bucks.darn. <br /> last nite i was feeling shitty..two nights back actually..dunnoe...cry cry like sum asshole den in the morning wake up cant open my eyes..wahahha..all fer a gd reason but jus nw i read his blog..gee..dunnoe whether to feel the regret or jus to cry again..ahhhh but fuckk..<em>i lost everything too..</em> <br /> had such a good time jus now...the training was great..the pple were great...they were like...jus awesome seyy...so frenly..except fer a few..dunnoe whther nak kater step jambu ke ape ..great interactions..sum bullshits more laughs.its all a good feeling.darn darn good.. <br />after training went out with hafiz and firdhaus..i mean the two of them are soooo cute..hafiz is the cutiepie and firdhaus is gd looking and quiet!!~wakakka..so diff frm me and my sayang.we're like hooligans or maybe barbarians..dunnoe..jus wen i thought i wanted to b myself my fucking hp gave shit and i realised dat i shudnt share too much of my life with boys again..ntah eh..i dun wanna b stuck in anymore heartbreaking situations..see gal..this is my reason to why i was so quiet..it doesnt matter hw noisy i am or usually is cuz all i knw i shud stp all this shit frm happening to me b4 it happens..<em>im really sorry boys..</em> <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9251083-110096572138228826?l=paperstick.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>dEtHBeLLahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15983532222208796282noreply@blogger.com0